maiko blurbs

heres the thing, i mailed my friend because i was still so hurt. i still feel like crying even though im not supposed to anymore. i told my friend about how i still feel about kenneth, that i still love him. when i sent that mail, this mail arrived. (i still feel the connection between us or something, how ironic, when i told my friend i still love kenneth, he sent me this mail at the EXACT SAME TIME)

 

from Aa 彼氏 maiken08@gmail.com

subj: (T_T)

date: apr. 13 23:26

 

muka ngang cgurado na desisyon mo chi… qng yun sa tingin mo tama oky cge…… basta lagi mo tandaan na mahal na mahal kita…mag aanty adin akp na kausapin mo q…. lagi kang mag iingat.. ur olwyz be my love…

(T_T)

my reply :

u never loved me. if u did, u never would have cheated. not even once. i gave u a chance and trusted u again but u screwed up. tell me kenneth, am i being such a bitch for not accepting u again?

 

from Aa 彼氏 maiken08@gmail.com

subj: (T_T)

date: apr. 14 00:55

 

i love you… maiko…u know dat… ewan q pra ilng araw q plng nakilala un gan2 na kala2basan sana pla hindi nlng aq lumabas april 4 q xa nakilala kila jid tapos e2 na ng yari grabe.. cant imagine… hindi kme nag ki2ta miski 1 beses… sa FS lang… un mga cnav ko sa FS salita lng… wlang feelings.. aq nara2mdamanq qng anu pkiramdam mo chi.. sobra… tang ina ko wala kong kwenta..tama chi.. mabuti pa nga cguro wag mo na ko balikan ayoko ng masaktan pa kita.. pro tandaan mo chi.. mahal na mahal kita… hinding hindi ko ka2limutan lahat ng bagay na ng yari satin…at hinding hindi kita mali2mutan chi… ikaw lng ang mag iisang hachiko ko…hindi ko dapat cnayng mga pag kakataon na mahal na mahal mo pako.. grabe..napakasama ko.. patawarin mo sana ko…

sorry.

 

my reply:

wow. she’s a bitch then! u just met her this april 4 and u already became a couple? wow.

 

from Aa 彼氏 maiken08@gmail.com

subj: (T_T)

date: apr. 14 01:42

 

hah? couple?? hindi kme mag bf or mag gf crush nya ko cnakyan ko lng.. cnav q na about saten qng anu lagay naten ngaun kea iiwas na xa… at iiwas na ko sa lhat ng bitch na cnasv mo chi… ma mamakla nlng aq.. tangina ko.. shit pa..

(T_T)

 

my reply:

you should have done that in the first place, now its too late.

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cnav q na about saten qng anu lagay nten ngaun kea iiwas na xa at iiwas na ko sa lhat ng bitch na cnasv mo chi.. ma mamakla nlng aq… tangina ko shit pa (T_T)

 

from Aa 彼氏 maiken08@gmail.com

subj: (T_T)

date: apr. 14 03:00

 

i love you so much…

maiko…

T_T

 

 

もしまたあなたに会えるのならひとつだけ聞かせて欲しいの
いっしょに過ごした時間はどうでもいいような終わりだったから

I’m so not over you

ほんとはねどこかでばったりあなたに会ったら
なぐってやるって思ってる
でもほんとはねたぶんねあなたの顔を見たら泣いてしまうんだろうな
声も出せなくて

愛してるって何度も言ったのはほんとだったの一度でも?
大っきらいだってもし今言えたとしたら
胸の痛みは消えるかな?忘れられるのかな?

「今までありがと」それで終わりに出来るのは置いてく方だけ
プライドとかじゃなく置いてかれる方はそんなすぐに絶対思えない

I’m so not over you

今でもねどこかでばったりあなたに会ったら
なぐってやりたいって思ってる
でもほんとはねきっとねあなたの顔を見たら許してしまうかもな
何も言えなくて

そばにいるって何度も言ったのはほんとだったの一度でも?
この思いは胸の痛みはいつまで
苦しませるの?泣かせるの?

愛してるって何度も言ったのはほんとだったの一度でも?
大っきらいだって大きな声で言えても
胸の痛みはただきっと増えるだけなんだろう
この思いにも言える日は来るかな?
「大っきらい…でもありがと…」

If I could see you again
there’s just one thing I’d want you to hear
The time we spent together was
somehow still good because it ended

I’m so not over you

Well, the truth is that if I were to unexpectedly run into you somewhere,
I think I’d punch (hit) you
But honestly, if I saw your face I’d probably
cry and not be able to speak

you said I love you so many times,
but was it even true once?
Now, if I decide to say that I hate you,
I wonder if the pain in my heart would disappear?
Would I be able to forget?

For everything you’ve done, thank you Then, at the end
all I can do is leave things alone
It’s not something like pride, but leaving things to fade so soon is
something I definitely can’t think about

I’m so not over you

But now, if I were to unexpectedly run into you somewhere,
I think I’d want to punch (hit) you
But honestly, certainly if I saw your face
I’d probably forgive you and not be able to say a word

you said I’d be by your side so many times,
but was it even true once?
Will this thought and pain in my heart
forever cause me sorrow ? Make me cry?

you said I love you so many times,
but was it even true once?
If I could say that I hate you in a loud voice
the pain in my heart would probably just increase;
With this thought, I wonder if the day when I can speak out will come?

I hate you… but thank you…

 

this is private. only real friends can see and comment.

so much stuff has been happening lately..last november 8, we celebrated our 1 year and 8th monthsary. since we lacked funds for the movies, we decided to stay at his house and have a date there. =) he bought cheese sticks, barbeque, hotdogs,  and kwekweks! XD then for dessert, i contributed a quarter gallon of ice cream which we ate quickly..

soon after that, i decided to go home, but our plan is that he’d sleep over for the rest of the night. =) so after tickling,saying sweet stuffs and making each other tired, we decided to hit the stacks.

yesterday was a lot of fun! me and my friend kat went to tomas morato cosmo nails for a shoot for Qtv fit n fab =)

met new friends there. and i got to see marian rivera, iza calzado,  bianca king, merryl soriano. they were all gorgeous. XD

anyway, back to fit n fab, its going to be aired on tuesday november 11. 7pm Qtv and will be replayed on sunday november 16. 11 pm =)

how come when you want to go somewhere, id let you go

how come when i want to go somewhere, you wont let me go?

mou konna koto hanashita koto aru deshoU? dokka ikitai nara otagai ni iu dake nde we’re free to go! demo you changed only for a short while. now you’re back to your old self. wagamama. (-_-)

im really

touched

by some

guy who

put a lot

of effort

in doing

this.. =)

i havent had the best sleep last night.. i was half awake most times.. then finally i was in the verge of falling asleep when i felt something moving above my sheets..(legs part) it felt like a hand or something small (like a of a doll) walking around my legs….(0_o) then immediately i felt wide awake. i kicked my sheets off me and then nothing. if it were rats that came over me, i wouldve heard the darn rat running away. but there was nothing after i kicked the sheets of.. talk about WEIRD!

then i fell asleep again. this time when i woke up, i felt the urge of finally going to the cemetery..i want to visit my grand dad and visit “him” at kenneth’s house. (@_@) but then when i asked my grandmum for a tricycle fair, she just ended up shouting at me, saying she didnt have money. for pete’s sake, how would i go to the damned cemetery if i didnt have any money with me??

its because of that stupid snatcher my life is like this and will be like this for a while!!!!!! chikusho. i have no choice but to borrow money from my brother again..m(-_-)m

i cant sleep cause i havent seen you yet.

i cant sleep cause i already miss you.

i cant sleep cause i want to be with you.

and lastly,

i cant sleep cause i want to sleep with you.

(T_T)

i know this is just another no brainer entry from one of your friends (*^U^)

but i just want to show the world how much i love and miss my *chi*

have you ever felt like this in your entire life? i mean like, you love someone so much that even though you’re already with him/her, you still miss him/ her?? lmfao

im becoming mushy all over again.. i know if christia sees this blog she’s gonna answer right away =) so much for loving someone huh?

love love *chi* kisses and hugs

my handbag have been snatched today (oct 31, 2008 9pm at marville 2 near ynares) containing my wallet with atm and drivers license by a semi bald guy (around 24 years old a little bit fat) riding a motorcycle. whoever you are, PLEASE, i need the license.